Sorry to the regulars who came here yesterday for some kind of comment on Tuesday night's debacle. The stats suggest there were quite a few folk looked in - defeat is better for website hits, I've discovered.
Frankly, being too depressed for words I locked myself in a dark place with nothing for company but some Arkells, Mrs Log's Morrisey album and a tape of Andy King's greatest post-match interviews, and was only talked down from the loft at 3am this morning.
Things weren't any better in the cold light of day. Quite rightly, outrage greeted the
feeble performance on the pitch that handed Cheltenham Town their first ever second division win. Quite rightly, outrage greeted the gestures and foul-mouthed remarks to the crowd of club captain Andy Gurney and last year's player of the season, Matty Heywood.
Locked away yesterday, my initial thoughts were to have the two players dumped in the reserves and put up for sale. As the day wore on, I realised we hardly had the squad to get away with such dramatic action, and we'd be lucky to sell them anyway.
By evening, having read
what was said to the players concerned, I was thinking the
Supporters' Trust suggestion - that they apologise to the fans and we all try to get along in the future - was much more sensible and mature. Even if sensible and mature are not words you'd attach to the players concerned, or the minority of fans who had been goading them so much on Tuesday night (one poster on Rivals even
suggests the fans owe the
players an apology). Certainly, having read what was said, I've never heard of anything like it, from fans at any club.
In every sense, Town are a shambles. Fans are turning on players, players are turning on the crowd, and fans and players are even having a go among themselves. But I don't think it's all Andy King's fault - I have to say I felt genuine sympathy for the man when he was interviewed on Wiltshire Sound after the match. And he has to stand by his players, because if he loses them then - by his own admission - he's lost his job.
He sounded bemused by what's going on, and it only made me even more relieved we had Steve Coppell around to try and help turn things around. The way things stand at the moment, Moses himself would be having second thoughts about helping out at the County Ground.
So what has gone wrong? It's been popular to point out that what was a pretty reliable defence last year is falling to bits. Certainly, either with three or four at the back, there's clearly a problem with Matty Heywood's form and confidence, and communication between the back line and Bart Gremink.
King is at fault for his team selections: I'm not sold on Gareth Edds at right back - given he plays in the centre of midfield for the Aussie u-21s, perhaps he should swap with Gurney who
looks lost, and far too far forward, in central midfield.
And poor old David Duke, favourite for the boo boys, is a right-sided midfielder asked to play at left back. I think his performances haven't been bad, considering (he has learnt to cross with his "wrong" foot as time has passed) but he should now be played in the right position to put him out his misery.
But the defence is not the whole problem. Last season, our bottleneck was in midfield: with things not working in there, our strikers had to work off scraps. This season, our midfield has been doing better (except in the most recent couple of games) but our strikers have shown they couldn't hit a barn door from two yards, let alone a goal with a real, live, semi-conscious goalkeeper.
It's not just misses: Sam Parkin has looked dead to what chances there are, failing to cross his defender or the keeper to attack the ball. We all knew Eric Sabin lacked a finishing touch: he is now demonstrating a wider lack of technique that means moves too often break down around him. Surely Alan Young deserves a chance to show what he can do when Danny Invincible, who can supply the pace, is fully fit. Indeed, we've missed Danny: Jimmy Davis, while skilful, didn't make the killer ball often enough, wasting too many good opportunities to create a chance.
Finally, there's the "x" factor: confidence. At the start of the season, we had bags of it (and I use "we" deliberately, because I mean both the fans and the players). The way things are going, I half expect the team to be booed onto the park on Saturday, and with the first mistake there will be howls of protest. That's no way to motivate the players, and practically guarantees a defeat.
We need to get behind the team on Saturday, and leave any protests until the end. What chance that? At the moment, it's the loft again for me on Saturday night.